Picaro’s Log

Pursue of happyness, a movie that I wanted to watch for a long time and I watched it yesterday. It was a simple but motivated true story of a father. But, It touched my heart. I knew the feeling of broke , although I wasn’t as bad as Chris Gardner , the man in the movie, well not even 30% of the bad he was.

what do happiness mean?
A steady, permanent bored-till- die  job?
A free & easy life but hardly survive from basic daycare?
Is this the so-called happiness? Are u pursuing one?
No, I don’t. I’ve lost my direction , frankly.

After the 2 days in S’pore, no much of the places visited, a rush visit in a rush city. Everythings & everybody is just so so so so RUSH.

What I’ve got is …  2 more stamps on my new passport, muscle pain & extremely exhausted!

I was on my way back to KL from S’pore.
The very first of the plan was KL - S’pore - NZ.
If I didn’t change my mind, I would be on the air flying to Auckland now instead of typing this blog in my room.
If I keep on to my plan , I would be starting on a new and unknown journey in my life.
Well, its the unknown journey staying back to KL too.
Well, too many of the "if-s…."
Back to reality, here I declare…
I’m still in KL, back to the ordinary life.
To those who read my blog all this while, please do not be annoyed of my kept mentioning of NZ WHM.
It would probably be the last time I’d mention…
22 Dec 2007.

So long~ my dear little Whisky. May u rest in peace.

In memories of Whisky Mario 16 Oct 2007

I just got to know a friend was in Finland. wow, Finland. One of my dream destination to go to. Well, I have a lots of dream destinations besides Finland, its Tibet, Europe, Canada, Russia, Hawaii…
I’ve was amazed by friends who could or currently at overseas, studying, working , backpacking and so forth. I’m always wanted to be out of Malaysia. Not that I don’t like Malaysia. But, there are just some unknown and mysterious adventure outside that I really wish to explore. The ideal plan is staying at that plan for a month or two to get to know the lifestyle, the culture , the people at a new country. Unfortunately, it the basic rules apply. Money and visa. Well, as a low income worker, it’s almost impossible to save money with ur pay , go travel for a month or two without any income. A working holiday is great. Unfortunately, as a Malaysian, you couldnt get much working holiday destination. Only UK and NZ is opened for Malaysian for a working holiday. Too bad, all my dream destinations are out of the list. What to do? the only things I could is just work locally, save enough to grant a student visa to explore the places where i want to go. It’s life! Facts that u couldn’t change for being a M’sian. I could just keep being amazed by friends of overseas…

不知从何时起， 就常用 “习惯就好” 这四个字。
很多事情，开始时会很抗拒， 日子旧了， 习惯就好。

前几天， 有个来了几个月的新同事问了我一句 ，“其实你到底是做什么的啊？开始时以为你是副导，可是约来约觉得你像个剪接师。。。”
这个问题，他不是第一个问我的人， 大部分刚来的新同时或trainee 都会问我同一个问题。 刚开始时， 我有尝试在找答案， 日子旧了，不得要领。我曾听过一句话， “改变不能接受的，接受不能改变的” 。 有些事情不能改变，唯有接受。 接受就了， 就便习惯了。 也习惯性的回答同个答案 “我什么都做的 ， 下次有工开记得叫我哦！哈哈。。” 哈啦几句，就把问题带过了。习惯就好的心态， 是让自己好过一点吧。漫长的人生，不能每件事情都得到确定的答案， 黑和白之间，是有灰色地带的，得不到答案的灰色地带， 就把它变成习惯啦。。。。

习惯了就好了！

I’ve just finished watching " THe Princess’s Diary"  1 & 2 in a roll , which I’ve been wanting to watch long long long long time ago. The movie didnt put me down , and I was well entertained after a day of headache work from my BELOVED JOBS . After watching, I was so so so so admire "Princess Mia’s little Genovia country" . A peaceful, small european country which I always wanted to live in (too sick of KL’s life )

Well , let’s crap about the princess thingy here ..
Princess. I did dream of being one when I was little. I believe most of us did .
In younger day, Princess to me is the King’s daughter, who has all the things in the world. Living in Palace, wearing nice dress and tiara, marry a prince and living happily ever after…..as what the fairy tales told.  Knewing more of the cruelty of real life as I growing up, THE PRINCESS dream is no longer in mind , fairy tale was just a tale . But, what’s for sure? I am always the princess of my parents haha and as for prince… well, lets faith do the its job.
Princess rules